Because I don’t want to have sweets at home, I keep a stracciatella cream you can stir with milk and it’s ready. Usually I just need a couple of spoons and I’m done with it. So the desire for something sweet leaves, but the mental crisis stays.

My current problem seems to be that I’m angry at everything. I’m angry because the Cablecom sent me another cable modem, and most likely will bill me twice even if I call their support line several time, I don’t pick up the cable modem, and write them a long letter, why I don’t want the modem. I’m angry because my customers are difficult and don’t seem to acknowledge the work we do for them. I’m angry because one of my best friends is almost unreachable. I’m angry because I can’t return something that belongs to my father. I’m angry because I tend to be to tired and exhausted to go to they gym in the evening. I’m angry because I – again – don’t have much money for the coming month. And finally I’m angry because I feel like nobody needs me.

Oh! I forgot another important thing: I’m angry because I don’t like my current hair cut.

I wonder how I’ll get out of this. Getting thirty in a month probably won’t help much either. I guess I just need something to look forward to, and definitely the feeling that I’m – in some way – needed.

The 24th of each month is a very special day: I get paid. Sometimes it’s a day, I’m looking forward to several (mostly about 2) weeks, sometimes it’s just a lucky day among a series of happy ones.

Since I haven’t fully monetarily recovered yet from moving twice within little more than a month and especially buying kitchen and living space stuff I didn’t possess before, the 24th is like the blade of grass I cling to. From my years as a student I hate to order the cheapest stuff on the menu, to allow myself only to do some grocery shopping (or actually no grocery shopping … which helps with loosing weight) or – worst of all – don’t allow myself anything at all. Not even a Starbucks coffee. (Ghee, even a coffee shop has a website these days…)

Then again I wonder how I manage to be somewhere on the same spot as I have been as a student when I get an ok salary???

Mhm….

Even though I registered two weeks before I moved to my new appartement, it took until today (meaning more than six weeks) to get my cable modem. Up until now I personally registered three times for a cable modem at Cablecom and it always took over a month and at least five phone calls to their support lines to speed up or just even notify them that they forgot about you.

They told me on a Monday that the modem is on its way, while on Wednesday my registration was cancelled without reason and I’d have to register again. Luckily I was persistent and somebody handed my registration forward.

I wonder who programmed their multiple systems. That company did obviously the worst job ever.

Anyway. I guess I better never give my current account away again as I did before. And I also better not move anywhere new.